LETS STOP BEING STRANGER TO SUFFERINGS:

I am no stranger to pain. 

When I was younger I was bullied (amongst many other issues) Severely bullied to the point where I spiraled into a deep depression. I ended up on multiple medications and my young body couldn't process all the different drugs and for lack of a better word - I snapped. 

I tried to take my own life many times. I was hospitalized & knew pain deeper than any young girl should. 

I know what it feels like to cut my flesh in hopes that the pain would bring me comfort.

I know what its like to have tubs ran down your throat as your handcuffed to the bed so you dont rip them out.

Because of all the prescription medications, I started to lose touch with myself. I was on 5 prescription drugs at one time and sometimes would fall asleep eating. 

Instead of going to high school I went to treatment centers...any semblance of normalcy was stripped from me. 

You see when I look back on my life & my childhood, there are so many ways the enemy tried to take me out. 

I look back at all the times He attempted to kill steal and destroy me before I had a chance to get to the Lord. 

I believe deep in my bones He knew that I had a purpose, and this pressing and testing the Lord knew He could use for His glory. What the enemy meant for evil - He turned it for good.

One day I'll get deep into my story. It's painful but in every single dark alley of it shines the Fathers love and saving grace towards me. 

He never let me stay down for long. He continued to propel me forward even when I didn't even know it was Him. 

Looking back I can see His wings protecting me and His hand of favor on me. He was always guiding me to Himself

To be honest I shouldn't be alive right now ... but God😭

I say all this to say that no matter how dark it feels, no matter what you're going through He has got you! If you've constantly struggled to fit in or had it really hard just remember that the enemy comes to steal, kill, and destroy. 

All of hell knows what you carry & what the Lord can do with your laid down life. 

Satans job is to try to stop you from realizing this before it's too late. 

Because when you lock eyes with the King, & know you have a Kingdom purpose it's too late for him. He wants to try to take you out before YOU know. 

But YOU are a warrior. 

Your pain wasn't in vain. He can use it to help others. 

You have something that the Father put inside of you that can't be stolen or killed or destroyed. 

You have a purpose. Don't let any devil in hell lie to you and tell you otherwise. 

There is a trail that needs to be forged that only you alongside the Lord can  trailblaze. 

A short cut out of the fire that took you way too long to escape to share with others.

Lean into the Lord, fall to His feet. Allow Him to train your hands for battle & anoint your head with His oil. 

The world needs you to heal because the world needs His light.